long time i have written here,I an so fricken upset,Ryan hill aka guidewire has finally gone, he admited he hates me and that hurt,really hurt.why must I be so sad about loosing him? eay I loved him. How it happened,I Ddont know.but i do ,i honestly love him. and it hurts .but he never supported me at all. never said hey your pics are good , never answered my emails. always chhosing what to answer and what to ignore,he was aragant and cocky and yet ,i kept on believing he still cares.